Are you a dancer and recently got injured? Why it's natural to feel fear and how to transform the process of injury into meaningful learning.
As you know, I'm a physiotherapist dedicated to dance, which is still an active dancer on a hobby basis. By the way, I never have seen the reason to stop dancing! What I usually do now is that I only adjust my body and thoughts to new needs and the life situation as a mother, wife, freelancer, house owner, and more.
In this article, I will share with you some thoughts about being injured and how to make the process constructive for yourself as a dancer.
It's started just right after my period of preparations for a dancing performance. After some short time, I realized that my knee started to hurt, and I could barely bend it, walk the stairs, or play with my kids on the floor.
The pain came unexpectedly and surprised me as I couldn't give it any meaning or track any logical arguments for why my knee had just stopped functioning.
Mentally, the first thing that came to me was the feeling of a catastrophe. It manifested itself as a big shock and a fear of not being able to dance again. I thought if I couldn't function normally in my regular daily life, how would it be possible for me to go to the class back and dance?
Second, the black & white thoughts activated immediately, and I started with an inner negative dialog: this is over; there will never be any dance classes anymore. The dancing is over. Everything is over. Now I'm going to live a boring life for the rest of it.
Third: I started to close myself to the world, and I became silent. I stopped to talk to my friends and attend dancing. When they asked, I only answered: oh, I'm so busy right now, so I don't have much time to take classes.
Fourth: I started to get these images in my head about how my knee must look like, with meniscus damaged or worse. I expected complex operations and a long recovery process at the hospital. What was in my head was an image of a disaster and a total failure.
I was surprised how it was possible to feel like that without knowing ANYTHING about the range of this potential injury.
So what I did was seek professional help, and I went to my doctor! I asked for an MR test, and I also started to test myself what my knee could do and what not. I protected my knee and didn't let it do the activities and functions, making the pain worse. When my MR results came, and the picture showed a perfect meniscus and other undamaged structures in the knee, I breathed out. I got so surprised that there wasn't any severe damage inside my knee, only a millimeter- size small cyst that irritated the area and probably caused the pain I felt and the impaired function in my knee. I almost started to laugh when I discovered this, and that my fear was much more significant than the actual damage was, and that I spent so much energy being worried and lost so much joy being always afraid.
But, I still had pain, and the knee function was terrible. Anyway, knowing that I could calm down, I started to open my mouth and shared my situation with my sister, who knows me very well and knows how significant dancing is for me. Then I went to the studio, and I took action. I trained on balance math and finally took out my professional knowledge about the anatomy and physiology of my knee and my pain. I started to explain pain for myself (by the way, I recommend this book "Explain Pain"!), and believe me, as an injured dancer, I wasn't better at mastering my fear even that I'm a physiotherapist. In this situation, I faced the injury as a human being, with the fear which is very natural and has a function of protection.
After some weeks, I retested my knee at a hospital, and the cyst was totally gone, the pain was gone, and I was a happy dancer again!
If you would like to know what kind of a knee approach I used during my injury, clink on the link here: